There’s this idea out there that the Law of Attraction works. That it works perfectly. It works every time.
But it doesn’t.
I’ve been on this roller coaster for a while now. I’ve been in places high up where everything is falling into place. And low down where nothing is falling into place.
And I’ve learned that the difference between the two is actually really simple:
Am I listening to myself or not?
When I’m listening to myself and feeling doubts about what I’m trying to do, I tend to succeed. Because I can hear and release the baggage that’s been holding me back. The old thoughts that are all-pervasive and seek only to keep me down in that low place where I’ve always expected to be.
When I’m not listening to myself and hopeful that I can just keep repressing all the doubts, that they’ll just go away by themselves, I tend to be unsuccessful in my manifestations. In this place, it’s easier to pretend that I’m happy and everything’s fine and I’m all hopeful on the outside…
The reason this repressed state doesn’t work so well with the Law of Attraction is that we attract what we are aligned to in that repressed space. In the subconscious mind, that is.
When we are conscious and aware of what we are feeling, we are clearing out the subconscious mind to receive. When we want to bury what we’re feeling, we are leaving all that repressed information to fester – and that IS the literal blockage to what we want to receive into our lives.
So what do I to get back to a place of awareness and consciousness when I don’t really want to hear the doubts and fears playing on my mind?
I listen. Patiently. Persistently. I notice the desire to repress, hold back, stay small and weak where nothing can ‘hurt me’**.
And I step one foot at a time towards whatever my intuition is telling me to do… like writing this blog post and being guided to create a space for the exploration of these ideas for all of us! I know from past experience that sharing these ideas works for me because it keeps me conscious and accountable to my own goals, so why not action that again.
** Note: That idea of what hurts us tends to be the things that we didn’t receive love for, especially as kids but also as adults. If you were flamboyant and fun but your mother was embarrassed by that and got snappy when you were just being yourself, then you didn’t receive love for that behavior – or so it felt to the child mind. And so you withhold that part of you now, even though it might be necessary to express it in order to build a life that you love and which is full of abundance.
If I can’t fully unlock what I’m feeling (perhaps because it’s been repressed for so long) I have to work around it by just following my intuition.
What I know is that we all release old patterns and thoughts in layers. We spiral with our old emotional ‘stuff’. We have to because each small release is an evolution of the mind, and with each evolution, we can sustain, hear and feel more. There’s no perfect pathway through this, but there are awareness and a consciousness of what we’re moving through. We CAN choose to respect the journey and not feel that everything has to just be perfect. If it were, what would be the point of this life we’re leading?